I restarted writing my pages today. It was almost six months since I abandoned them. Although today I wrote as a drain for much ranting, it actually felt good to retake my pages.
There was a very weird synchronicity about them today. I don’t remember why I stopped writing them, but I do remember that I was still writing in between days about a crush I had last year. I had all these thoughts and feelings I wanted to pour into the pages. And I knew I had one last “chapter” that I wanted to write, and it’s been on my mind lingering all this time that I need to write it down —plus I already have this idea of painting a set of 7 or so pieces to finally let the whole thing go. Well, the crush is long let go, and I don’t need to write or paint to get over it; the morning pages have done their job. But I do believe I have a good piece of writing and a great idea for my paintings. The crush is over, but I’ll pursue the projects :D
Anyway, exactly today, I learned that the crush is soon to get married. It is so weird that it happened today, the same day that I retake my morning pages in which he has been a protagonist of a few. I’ll be writing my pending “chapter” this week or next, and I’ll move on with my pages, because I have done so with my life.
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